My Story…Jumpin through hoops!

Posted by on Dec 19, 2009 in The problem | No Comments

So I am 25 years old and… I don’t know what I want to do with my life!!!!

I have been thinking about it quite a bit lately and I have come to see what has contributed to this situation of confusion.

At the age of four my parents got me involved in all sorts of activities; ballet, soccer, coach pitch baseball, basketball, singing, drawing, softball, track. By the time I was eight, I was often juggling two different lessons or practices around in one day. For the most part I really liked being involved in these things, especially the sports! Whatever sport was in season I was playing it, until the age of 16. There was always one sport that was my favorite…soccer.  That is when I tried out for the Firebirds club team, at the time they were considered the best in the state of Utah for my age group. It wasn’t a day to late either, because now that I was 16 I could drive and the Firebirds practiced an hour away from my hometown.

I got used to my regimen, going to school, rushing home, making a sandwich, driving up to Salt Lake City for practice. I would play then drive home, eat dinner and study until I went to bed. I did this at least five days out of the week.  To add to the excitement, I was a bit of an over-achiever  and was determined to keep a 4.0 GPA so I could get into the best university possible.

My goal was to play soccer in college, and I ended up doing just that. I got a scholarship to Brigham Young University and played on their team for 3.5 years, graduated early with a degree in Business Management, and then two months later left to go serve as a volunteer missionary for my church in Toronto, Canada for a year and a half.

Up to this point in my life I was used to a certain structure. From the youngest age I can remember I was always looking forward to the next thing, the next grade, the next level to pass, the next class to take, the next best team to make, the next school to go to. I was a machine! A machine made to go through the process of our education system here in America. Someone placed a hoop in front of me and said jump, and I did.  I felt good about myself, but immediately saw there was another hoop, so I jumped again. I just kept jumping from hoop, to hoop, to hoop!

At the age of 23 I got home from serving my mission,  and had no new hoop to jump through. Soon there after panic struck…What am I going to do next?!? What do I wan to do? The question continues to linger,  for the first time in my life I felt like there was not a new hoop in front of me and I froze, I didn’t know what to do. I didn’t’ know what I even wanted! I have the whole world at my fingertips to go in any direction I please, but I am unfamiliar with the freedom. It’s as if I need the hoop there to move! To make matters worse I was broke as a joke, and hardly had a penny to my name.

So the quest began, it was time to get a job. I thought it sounded easy enough. Aside from the problem of not knowing what I wanted to do, I had one other minor problem…I had never had a job before! What? Is that shocking? A 23 year old woman who has never had a job. You see I was so focused on soccer and school that I didn’t have the time to get a job.

Needless to say I struggled to find someone to hire me,  it took several months before I had the first taker (and it was my brother). I have since tried out a few things and although I haven’t found exactly what I am looking for I feel grateful to at least have found what I don’t want to do.

Although my story is unique in the experiences I choose to have, my feelings of confusion are not. The transition for me and my other fellow 20 somethings is quite a challenge. We are all used to having hoops placed in front of us and being told to jump on through, once we graduate from college and the hoops are gone we struggle to find our place. This is what I want to explore, this is the purpose of this blog. To talk about the challenges and struggles that 20 somethings have in finding their purpose and path in life. To really discover what it is that they want to do with their life and then have the courage to do it!

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