I’m talking about RIGHT NOW!

As I was falling asleep the other night I was remembering when I was a kid and how I loved Peter Pan so much. My cousins and I would get up on top the pool table and jump off believing if we just had enough faith we could fly. I loved the idea of Peter Pan, I thought I was going to stay young forever!  As I remembered being a child I started to feel a sad sense of nostalgia. I was sad at the realization that I can never go back. The past is over and it is just a memory now, all the relationships evolve and go in their own directions, dreams and interests morph, and opportunities are gone. For example, I will never be as close to my best friends who are now married, I no longer care about climbing trees and building forts in my back yard,  and I will never play soccer at the level I played it high school and college. It makes me sad when I think about how I can never go back and relive those moments.

On the other end I catch myself often thinking of the future and what amazing crazy things may lurk around the corner. I wonder how long I will stay in LA, or what I will be doing in a year from now, or five years from now, I wonder if I will ever find what I am looking for in a career and this creates a sense of anxiety. I feel unsure and anxious about the future. The funny thing about time is there is nothing I can do about the past or the future and as I think about them I often get upset. Yet I rarely am thinking about the present! The irony of it all is the present is the only moment I have any control over, yet I am not focused on it at all!

Living in the present moment is a difficult thing to do, yet I have a feeling it is the secret to creating what I want! I cannot change what happened yesterday, or know what will come tomorrow, but at this moment I have a choice. I have the choice to choose what I want right now, right now at this very second. To keep myself in the present is a challenging process but one I encourage to everyone. It actually makes life so much easier too. Knowing my interests change with time, I feel hesitation to jump into anything, but if I just think about what I want at this moment it is so easy. All I have to do is answer that one question. What do I want to do now? What can I do at this moment to get me what I want? What action can I take that will lead me one step closer to what I want? WHAT IS IT FOR RIGHT NOW? Live for right now! Be present in your life. Enjoy where you are at this very moment. This is my new intention, to really live in the present moment. This is the only moment I am really ever living in and I have wasted too much of my life not really being here! It’s time to live for right now!

1 Comment

  1. Caroline
    May 25, 2010

    WELL PUT I say! You really have a knack for writing you know that? I enjoy reading what your learning and doing in your life, thanks for sharing!

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